Don’t mind the title…I’ve been up for four hours and am messaging three friends…who sleeps anymore right?  Haha!

Recently I had a conversation with a buddy of mine that somewhat amused me.  His Christmas revolved around a dramatic breakup, so he wasn’t really having a jolly season this year.

After chit chat here and there he just put down his drink and looked hard at me.  “Who’s your ideal woman?”

I didn’t quite understand his question.  So he repeated it slower.  I heard the question well the first time, but I repeated that I didn’t understand, but then I offered “…one who will put up with me!”

It was a half joke…but very serious one too.  You learn hard oftentimes as a military person that it’s not easy to find someone to “put up” with not only you, but…the life.  And if you are someone that has a Warrior personality and you love that way of life, even when you’re no longer in uniform that can still pose challenges.  I’ve got to learn from mistakes, but thankfully there was also an enormous ship that held nearly 300 people and you got to learn from some of their mistakes too.  That said, the two most awesome marriages I’ve seen so far…both of my buddies are in the Navy.  So I know it works, and can work well.  But I digress…

So, he offered up hints, naming off people we knew and also some celebrities.  Basically, the would you like this person or that…  And use that as a baseline for who we seek.

What?!?

I’m sorry, I didn’t know you could custom make women now.  Who came up with that factory?  This guy?

I believed my buddy was looking at it totally wrong.  I told him if I ever did that, unless I actually met that person…there’d be nothing in my life.  I told him every person, and this can be anything…friendship, teammate, whatever as well…I look at the collective sum of that person.  I don’t see a real possible way to categorize people in that manner.  There were plenty of awesome and worthless people in my division.  Same at work.  I can go to a location and be friends with just one person there and the rest I’ve judged idiots.

To make sure, I took a jog through memory lane.  In this area of life, my road has been cautious so there have been a smaller pool of experience to base on, but I also notice very little drama.  Each person not too similar to people before or after.  I reviewed other friendships and work relationships.  Same conclusion as before…so at least it was working for me.

My buddy started drinking again…he said I was hurting his head.  Oh well, you wanted to know, right?

He still wasn’t satisfied, I could tell.  He turned to me, ready to ask another question.  I was sure I knew what he was about to as so I quickly thought and came up with the answer just as he opened his mouth.

“So is there anyone kinda famous that you like the collective sum of who they are?”

I knew it.  My answer was made and it didn’t take but half a second for me to reply.

“Gina Carano!“  Duh, lol.

That conversation amused me because I know he’s not the only one that thinks that way, and in closing I told him he needs to look himself in the mirror and think differently before he goes out looking for someone else.

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On another note, as I said…I’ve been awake.  Dreams that force me awake are slowly returning.  No…it’s not those dreams.  I’m trying to figure them out.  Almost all my dreams slip from memory when I awaken.  But these dreams are just like the others before, they play out and cause my mind to react strongly to them…like they laser etch themselves into my mind and in the shock and electric feeling, I’m jolted awake with those scenes and images glowing brightly.  I remember them for weeks, and in my down time try to ponder the meaning.

I do think they hold a message.  Of what, I’m not sure.  The biggest dream I had of last year, I could decipher that and I have lived my life accordingly.  The past couple of weeks I’d have dreams like this once a week…but they’re random as far as I’m concerned.  Oh well, at least it’s not a weekday today!

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It was my M&P’s birthday a few days ago, gotta ring it out…probably do that today!  I guess the sun’s almost up now…probably go hit a run before I go out.